goals

Only a few more days. Have you ever felt that your days were numbered. Maybe the night before you final exam, or the day before your cellphone bill was due. I hate this vacation time. I feel trapped and sufficated doing nothing.. My job is to eat and sleep twelve hours a day. I start to lose ambition and motivation. There are things to be done, but nothing is time sensitive. When I'm busy my day isnt run by the weather, like it is now. When something needed to get done I had to go out and do it rain or shine. Now I look outside and plan my day. Will I go by the lake, will we go to the beach, or will we watch a movie. It took me two days to get all of my hanging strings pulled once I got back from DC. I realize now how much stimulation and stress I need to maintain my health. I need alot. This fall I will be taking eighteen credits, be the ICAA president, fencing club, work study jobs, enviromental club, STI, and other things that I cant remember now. (Or dont want to). I'll be a senior, then what! How will I be next year at this same time. How will I keep myself just as busy as I will this fall. Last semester I would sleep 4-7 hours a night. I would complain that there werent enough hours in one day. I hope I will be active next year. I will volunteer and be a leader in my community. It might prove to be more challenging, but next year I will come back to this post and remember what I'm capable of.