i have alot more to say about marshall. the kids were amazing. there where alot of little kids running around. they were all so curious about us. our dbe owner had told us that everyone in the village knew we were coming, although, he had told no one. the adults were all just as curious but not as open about it as the kids. our dbe owner had this 5 year old girl, carla and i called her little sailor. she was this strong girl and ultra tomboy. i first met her in the dbe backyard she was taking off the tires of her cousins bike for no apparent reason. her dad is so allowing. she would jump off big pieces of wood and wrestle the little dog. this dog followed her everywhere. its name is flower. carla and i walked along the main road with sailor to this abandoned house. sailor said all the kids said it was haunted, but we went to the back of the house and sat on this pipe overlooking the river. it was an amazing view. sailor walked along the ridge and picked plants for us. we were going down the road again and all these little kids gathered around asking our names and where we were from. i asked these boys where they wanted to live when they grew up and they told me marshall. they said they wanted to be hunters. i really dont know how long villages in marshall can survive.
kaitlyn was a little angle that asked me hundreds of questions about my life in the outside. she is 10 and her family is thinking of moving to fairbanks. this girl really changed my life. her questions revealed to me the simplicity and complexity we live in. she took me to the co-op and showed me around. i remember she asked me first how old i was. then if i was married and then if i was happy. omgoodness. have you ever asked yourself that question-maybe but has anyone ever asked you that question. i was shocked. i didnt know what to say. what a thought-am i happy-so simple yet i couldnt answer. i understood the dynamics of happiness now. i understood she thought about her happiness, i should think of mine. my friends have thier happiness. and some have it, and some dont. what would make me happy ithought. i have income, i eat, im in a family. this question detached me from everything and brought me back to myself. now everything around me is connected to me. not me connected to everything. this ephinay happened in seconds. we do everything for some sort of gain. what are your motives. what type of gains do you pursue. and now this question becomes a check and balance procedure on me. combine your intentions with your actions or with your results. do they calculate into happiness.